December 08, 2006
Doubts, sinking in from all around
And I don't know how to be anything but myself
I don't even know how to be that to be honest
I want to stop freaking out about consequences
The kind where I worry about everyone I'm going to hurt
The kind that have me doing what I find best for everyone but me
But it's never clear what's best for me...so I'll never know
Do I take this road...or that one?
Monday, January 22, 2007
Written November 15, 2006
Your hair is still everywhere
From those days spent in the sheets
(And the ones spent on them)
If your love is my drug
Then your sex is my much wanted overdose
The things I would do if you were here
Tear those clothes from your beautiful body
(They're over-rated)
Cover every inch of you with kisses too numerous to count
Before I cover you with my own flesh
All the sounds that slip from your lips to my ears
They tease me on and on to please
I wish my lips could be everywhere at once
So I could always have my eyes on yours
The intensity, oh what it does to me
I'd have you anywhere I could
No time would be wasted with you near me
This time apart makes my once great need unbearable
Our times together blend and play in my head
Torturing me, leaving me yearning for your touch
I long to reacquaint our bodies
To get to know every smooth curve, every line, every soft surface
All over again
It's been too long my love
Won't you please come home...
Your hair is still everywhere
From those days spent in the sheets
(And the ones spent on them)
If your love is my drug
Then your sex is my much wanted overdose
The things I would do if you were here
Tear those clothes from your beautiful body
(They're over-rated)
Cover every inch of you with kisses too numerous to count
Before I cover you with my own flesh
All the sounds that slip from your lips to my ears
They tease me on and on to please
I wish my lips could be everywhere at once
So I could always have my eyes on yours
The intensity, oh what it does to me
I'd have you anywhere I could
No time would be wasted with you near me
This time apart makes my once great need unbearable
Our times together blend and play in my head
Torturing me, leaving me yearning for your touch
I long to reacquaint our bodies
To get to know every smooth curve, every line, every soft surface
All over again
It's been too long my love
Won't you please come home...
Written November 8, 2006
I remember the first kiss,
The anticipation,
The taste of your hot breath
...your soft lips.
In the park in the dark...we shared a secret.
That fence, your face, you command me.
Waking you with a kiss,
A kiss met with a smile I'll never forget.
My skin, my lips, my fingertips...
...Miss your skin...your lips...your fingertips.
That last night we slept with the light on,
I wanted you to be my first sight.
You're the voice in my head,
You're the love in my heart,
You're the love of my life.
You melt me still from thousands of miles away.
I'm going to find a way through this distance,
Nothing but the thought of you is keeping me clear.
Thank you.
I remember the first kiss,
The anticipation,
The taste of your hot breath
...your soft lips.
In the park in the dark...we shared a secret.
That fence, your face, you command me.
Waking you with a kiss,
A kiss met with a smile I'll never forget.
My skin, my lips, my fingertips...
...Miss your skin...your lips...your fingertips.
That last night we slept with the light on,
I wanted you to be my first sight.
You're the voice in my head,
You're the love in my heart,
You're the love of my life.
You melt me still from thousands of miles away.
I'm going to find a way through this distance,
Nothing but the thought of you is keeping me clear.
Thank you.
Written October 24 - November 5, 2006
I'm outside Baby, watching you
Depending on your memory to get me through.
These cigarettes I smoke are no need of mine
I just feel a connection with you, they bring me closer every time.
With you I'm content yet restless to fit everything and every word in.
I long for the day when we don't have to say "good-bye" and our life together can truly begin.
Hearing the rain fall, feeling the drops, it magnifies this pain,
'Cause living without you girl, is making me insane.
I can barely remember when living was just living and survival didn't depend on you.
It's your sweet voice and love urging me on, without them I'd never make it through.
I miss you in my arms where I felt I could keep you warm and safe forever.
But the dirt we took changed it all, just know that I'm still yours here and now, come what may, always, and wherever.
The time we had was never our's but we took it and spent it well.
I wish I had you here to hold tight and kiss 'cause without you Baby, even heaven is hell.
I love you.
I'm outside Baby, watching you
Depending on your memory to get me through.
These cigarettes I smoke are no need of mine
I just feel a connection with you, they bring me closer every time.
With you I'm content yet restless to fit everything and every word in.
I long for the day when we don't have to say "good-bye" and our life together can truly begin.
Hearing the rain fall, feeling the drops, it magnifies this pain,
'Cause living without you girl, is making me insane.
I can barely remember when living was just living and survival didn't depend on you.
It's your sweet voice and love urging me on, without them I'd never make it through.
I miss you in my arms where I felt I could keep you warm and safe forever.
But the dirt we took changed it all, just know that I'm still yours here and now, come what may, always, and wherever.
The time we had was never our's but we took it and spent it well.
I wish I had you here to hold tight and kiss 'cause without you Baby, even heaven is hell.
I love you.
Friday, January 05, 2007
You make me nervous
No, I don't trust myself without you
You can't trust what your heart tells you
You want to ignore what your brain warns against
And you wouldn't even think to question me
But I put that doubt in your head so long ago
With midnight tales of how my life went wrong
I'll be the greatest disappointment you've ever had
I can't have you expecting the best from me
Because I can't deliver, I'll not live up to higher standards
Too many years of conditioning
Too many attempts to fall off that pedestal
I am what I do, what I say, and what I feel
He argued against it so I had to prove him wrong
I've perfected the ability to do the wrong thing
Oh I'm the cleverest girl, I know
I must prove to you that all I know to do is disappoint
It's not a way to live, I know
It's not fair to anyone but I suppose I'm just selfish that way
Forgive me if you can but it's the only way I know to live
It should be so easy to quit just for you
All the things I need to survive should take a backseat
There was a time I thought I'd never have what those songs are all about
You should be enough for me, you could be the best thing
But I'll be the worst mistake you ever made
I go where the comfort takes me
It used to be your arms
But you're so far away
Waved good-bye and left me here
I know it's not fair, and I never intend to blame you
Now I find solace in places that aren't here
In places where I can't think too hard
Where missing you can't trap me
Where I can unwind just a little bit
Just let the knots I've been tying fray and fall away
It (she) helps me, you know
Fills the spot where you left a hole
It's (she's) no replacement, it's (she's) no you
But damn it, it (she) holds me tight
I thought we'd never part
You were going to be my fresh start
Opened my eyes and made me more true to myself than I've ever known I could be
You were the only thing I required, but
I put my life's happiness on your shoulders
I depended on you to keep me happy and sane, when that was never your job
It should be so easy to stand on my own
But here I stand, wishing I could hide in my own shadow
I fell apart, crushed and crumbled to my knees
I'm stronger when I'm weak
The unsatisfying familiarity
This darkness is what I know, sadly, it's home
No, I don't trust myself without you
You can't trust what your heart tells you
You want to ignore what your brain warns against
And you wouldn't even think to question me
But I put that doubt in your head so long ago
With midnight tales of how my life went wrong
I'll be the greatest disappointment you've ever had
I can't have you expecting the best from me
Because I can't deliver, I'll not live up to higher standards
Too many years of conditioning
Too many attempts to fall off that pedestal
I am what I do, what I say, and what I feel
He argued against it so I had to prove him wrong
I've perfected the ability to do the wrong thing
Oh I'm the cleverest girl, I know
I must prove to you that all I know to do is disappoint
It's not a way to live, I know
It's not fair to anyone but I suppose I'm just selfish that way
Forgive me if you can but it's the only way I know to live
It should be so easy to quit just for you
All the things I need to survive should take a backseat
There was a time I thought I'd never have what those songs are all about
You should be enough for me, you could be the best thing
But I'll be the worst mistake you ever made
I go where the comfort takes me
It used to be your arms
But you're so far away
Waved good-bye and left me here
I know it's not fair, and I never intend to blame you
Now I find solace in places that aren't here
In places where I can't think too hard
Where missing you can't trap me
Where I can unwind just a little bit
Just let the knots I've been tying fray and fall away
It (she) helps me, you know
Fills the spot where you left a hole
It's (she's) no replacement, it's (she's) no you
But damn it, it (she) holds me tight
I thought we'd never part
You were going to be my fresh start
Opened my eyes and made me more true to myself than I've ever known I could be
You were the only thing I required, but
I put my life's happiness on your shoulders
I depended on you to keep me happy and sane, when that was never your job
It should be so easy to stand on my own
But here I stand, wishing I could hide in my own shadow
I fell apart, crushed and crumbled to my knees
I'm stronger when I'm weak
The unsatisfying familiarity
This darkness is what I know, sadly, it's home
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