Written October 3, 2005

Why do you just sit back and watch me flail?
Does my pain please you?
I don't do this for you
It does this to me
Leaves me trapped
Your puppet with no strings

You could help me up
But you choose to push me lower
You laugh at the writhing pain worn on my face
This is the stuff of your wildest dreams
And of my nightmares

You watch me sink
Not even a sigh is issued from your smiling lips
Seems if I were to fade
You'd cry at the lack of entertainment
Not at the loss of me

If I were to crack a smile
You'd slander me
Remove the ability from me
Tear me down and sink me deeper

Put a hollow tip to my temple
Blow the thought from my brain
This tangent is for you
Nothing more you fucking prick

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You're alone
Under that cold slab,
In my head,
Out of reach

What I wouldn't give
But you would never allow it
I know better than that

It's been so long
Am I missed?
You have always been a part of me
I want to make you proud
But I can't do or be what it takes

Nothing I do brings you back
Even after all these years
These tears of mine bring no life

I don't want to wait
Only to discover that was our last hello
And our eternal good-bye

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I don't want to wake up anymore
You're not there when I do

I don't want to breathe
It feels so wrong without you

My existence is in vain
A life sought but never gained

Lonely feelings
Death of dread
Tired thoughts swim in my head

You did something to me
Made it possible to exist
Without you, I have nothing left