Written October 7, 2005

Comatose
I close my eyes
Feel my body relax
No more cracking under the pressure
Encompassed in a superior heat
Chest pain, but I invite it
My body yearns to shut down
While internally I can't stop moving
My eyes fight a wavering battle with drowsiness
suppress my inhibitions
A glazed stare fading to empty eyes
This was a trip - backwards
I recapture my breath
Slow at first, faster yet
Thoughts consume me easily
I haven't the will to fight now
I seek nothing golden
Shaking now, it will peak and I will fall - further still
Despair pours over me
Pick me up before the pieces are too small
I echo in my own head "you promised"
Cut me off, cut me down from this high
Don't let me close my eyes
The end is near but it's not what I seek